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Big fat purple dinosaur.

Thursday, April 29, 2004

[News Flash #1]

My Crazy Sister is watching Barney. The dinosaur. The show that I used to adore. Oh mannnn...

How's this? Having
"The ants go marching one by one hurrah, hurrah
The ants go marching one by one hurrah, hurrah
...boom boom boom boom...boom boom boom boom..."
being played in your ear at least twice is awesome, wonderful...

Ooh purple dinosaur I just want to punch you in your face.

I love you, You love me,
We are one big family,
With a great beeg Punch,
And Barney on the floor
No more purple dinosaur!

Now don't show this to any kids. I won't be held responsible for making them cry.



I stargazed. [6:10 PM]


Stuporified.

Yawn yawn yawn. Why can't anyone tell me 'why not exams instead'? I'm sure brainiacs like the MOE can come up with many answers! Firstly, I loved the English P2 passage, but not the questions. Can't they cut us some slack? Secondly, the ELP1 was awful, and in conclusion, the english paper is totally awesome. Breath-taking. Whatever.


The only thing that can save me right now is the belief that everyone can pass this paper. I should really learn to trust in God. I think I'm relying on myself too much. Tell me about it. -_-

"An emblem of unyielding grace". I like this phrase, and although I know I'm misinterpretating it, it feels to me as though this phrase, if it were describing someone, the person would have to be strong and has to have fabulous etiquette. That person is beautiful. Enough of ranting about someone so difficult to come across.

You know, I like geography. Ask me where Germany is and I'll tell you, in Europe, next to Poland, France, Switzerland, Austria, Netherlands, Luxembourg, Belgium...show me a map, I'll point it out to you. The thing is, I don't really associate tourism, agriculture, etc., with geography. My definiton of geography is the land. What shape. Water, where? What beautiful feature of the land. I guess this point of view is a little shallow. Then how can people, amazing people, come up with such beautiful poetry on landform? They just gush and gush and gush about the place. And when they come up with poetry on humans, homo sapiens, mankind, some of them just diss and diss and diss. It's amazing, humankind, they praise anything but themselves. Such humble beings. Excluding a whole lot of humans, I would like to point out. Maybe including me.

Yesterday was fine. Yesterday was awful. Yesterday left me in full jubilation of God for bringing me through the English exams. It was excrutiating writing the compo. My brain cells were overworked and underpaid. The compre left me in a stupor. The summary, when I came to it, felt okay because the rest were like ground-breaking news. Oh help me. I hereby conclude that anything with tests are awful. Everything without tests makes the subject more free and we are able to focus on any areas of the subject that interests us. Like history. I wish I could do the Biblical thing for the O'levels. At least I get to learn something I still have a passion for.

Come on, Prosit! Prosit! Let's drink to health. Btw the word 'Prosit' is German. There are a few things I'm confident of. I have a distinct feeling that I'll have nothing to be confident of once the Mid-years hit me full-blast. God bless me.

P.S. I love Germany. I still love English, no matter what others try to do.



I stargazed. [5:37 PM]


What's wrongg?

Monday, April 26, 2004

On an observative note, a lot of my entries begin or contain these seven or eight words "I think there's something wrong with me", or the likes of it.

What is wrong with me?



I stargazed. [9:46 PM]


Why I love Germany.

Sunday, April 25, 2004

Here I am! The glamorous, crap talking, rubbishy, laughing and going-crazy machine. Now stop asking me why I like Germany. Read it here youself. (Some of the points may be repeated, because right now, I can't process my thoughts coherently. Oops.)


1)Music. The orchestras there. "If music be the food of love...Let it play on!" Well, that's shakepeare, so?
2)The Geography of the Place. I esp. love Bavaria! It's amazing! Well, if you want to know, how the place looks like, go here and here and many many many more.
3)Football. Actually I love the Football in many places. Whatever...haha.
4)The Religious History. I love it. Isn't Martin Luther like great? Sigh.
5)The intelligence from the country. Isn't Albert Einstein brought up in Germany? (Although the Nazis chased him away. Brainless Aliens.)
6)The rich history. (I wish I could like eradicate the Nazi part though)
7)The festivals they celebrate. Go find out what the Oberammergau is. Go! And I love Christmas especially. It's just magical. Although anywhere else can be.
8)Writing block. Don't know what else to say. Let's just say that I'm speechless at the wonder. Not that I've run out of words.
9)Don't ask whether I'm going to marry a German. I don't know. It's all in God's will.

Anyway, it's been great! Went to Long John's with Elene and Lydia. And talked, and talked and talked. Lydia's going back to Australia for 10 days. I thought it sounded strange at first, but it isn't anymore. Don't wanna elaborate.

Why am I slacking here? I'm supposed to be studying for the Mid-Years! For English! But will anyone tell me how to study for English? Tag board's on the right, thank you.

I suppose that that's all for today. And I have come to a conclusion that some Sg Chinese drama's pronunciation of Chinese is worse than mine. And no, it's not a caucasian speaking, even. Just imagine.

Let your imagination soar to the ends of the rainbow, to reach the fabled pot of gold, in which actually contains English Literature. I tell you ah, that's better than gold. If you can't see that, I suppose it's a matter of 'to each his own' huh?

P.S. I adore Germany, and I adore English. How I wish I can speak German. I wish.



I stargazed. [5:28 PM]


Broken Promises.

Saturday, April 24, 2004

I broke the rule again. Whatever. But I feel sosososososo liberated! L-I-B-E-R-A-T-E-D! Yay! Clap with me all of ya'll! The old folks at the back! Come on! Well, Whatever dah. Chinese is so over for now. So so over. I am lost for words. Touched to the fullest extent of the extentest. How the chinese teachers sacrificed themselves to set a paper to free me. Freedom!

Now I wonder why I feel so crappy today. English Mid-Years next Wednesday. I suppose I should start on my A and E Maths. Just get something rolling. Feel good for accomplishing something. Ah feeeel good...I really think I'm going nuts and nuttier. But anyway, walking out with Charissa and Annabel is far-nay. Like totally.
1) Annabel acts like she's oh-so-sane. But Annabel darling, you're not!
2) I like blowing biscuit snow. It's fun and it grosses people out.
3) Charissa is a laughing, and clearing-the-throat machine. In other words, a laughing Ah-Pek.
4) Because it's after Chinese exams, I feel like I do have a right to act like a Nut. With a long tongue.

Anyway, gotta fly. Piano lesson's coming and I'm still not flying. I'm going to be so late.

P.S. I adore Germany!



I stargazed. [1:45 PM]


Friendship.

Friday, April 23, 2004

Let us be Friends till time surpasses us,
When it engulfs us like a tsunami.
Leaving only the souls of people who love each other in its wake,
Alive and rejoicing forevermore.

I feel guilty. I feel awful. I've just comitted an awful crime: I'm not studying for tomorrow's Chinese Mid-year exam! Yet again have I broken a promise I promised myself. And it's the same promise. What a Loser. But no worries. It's chinese. So what? Anyway, I've come to announce the fall of me. Me. 2/25 for an test, EMATHS in fact, is something that I should be completely over the top about. Not. Sheesh man. Well, I've got to mugggg...

Yesterday was the funniest day since the week started. Charissa, Miss Toilet of the century, just got into a fix because she wanted to walk out of school, with a very high tide. Well, then Annabel Ginny and Me twisted the whole thing up and made each other laugh, including Charissa, and she had to rush off. To the toilet. Man. Desperation will never bring me to that extent. Gross and grosser. What can I say?

I suddenly realize that what I typed up there are all abstract thoughts and might never ever make any complete sense to anyone who read it. Which is completely fine with me. But don't you find it amazing? You can twist words, truss them up together, and what comes out may be a fine piece of Literature, or simply rubbish, and they're all using the same words in different ways? If you don't, shoo!!!

I hope no one understands that I was kidding. But anyway. Auf Wiedersehen, und Hat einen brillianten Tag! That's Goodbye, in GERMAN. What were you thinking? French? [Shakes Head]

P.S. I have a declaration to make: I lurrrrrve Germany. Does that come as a surprise to you?



I stargazed. [3:42 PM]


Until Then.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

My heart can sing when I pause to remember
A heartache here is just a stepping stone
Along a trail that's winding always upward,
This troubled world is not my final home.

But until then my heart will go on singing,
Until then wth joy I'll carry on------
Until the day my eyes behold the city,
Until the day God calls me home.

Taken from 'Until Then' By Stuart Hamblem.

Hey hey. I broke the promise I promised myself. But anyway, I just love this song. Don't you ever agree? Praise the Lord! Anyway, today I went to Singpost, and throwed face with Annabel and Ginny. I tell you, the both of them really want to make me 'diu lian'. Laugh like hyenas and made me look weird. Sheesh, my language is declining to a naught. Shall pause and reflect on the negatives to writing like that. Bye. See you after the last day of my mid-years! But until then, My heart will go on Singing, For the Lord!



I stargazed. [4:52 PM]


Disappointed.

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Hi. I like just got a C6 for my chem test's avg. What a total disappointer. I worked hard for it man! But obviously not hard enough. This is a very very loud wake-up call from my long-suffering test results. I suppose this internet thing is taking up a huge fraction of my time. And I find it really true, which simply means, I'll abandon this place of mourning, uh no, but whatever, for some time. Mid years, Here I come! Unprepared. Anyway, I think the internet is a ploy to make people waste all their precious time here just to take part in their money-extortioning excercises, or whatsoever. I suppose it's been beneficial to me, but I know I've just been on the non-benenficial side. *Tsk tsk* And another thing, and I know I've been harping on this for goodness how long, but I really love Germany! Haha, on the other hand, I also love The English Language. That's why I've been complaining about my inability to go into the Lit class, or maybe about the silly choices that I make. I'm such a short-sighted person, not in a literal sense, and it's been mostly bad, and very bad for me. Can I disclose a secret? I am so going to drop Chinese in JC, if anything permits, and I'm going to be in the full jubilation of The English Language. Yeah man! ... Looking back at this thing, it looks like a fragment or even an iota of an argumentative essay, which I totally excel in, because my life aim is to be a lawyer. Wait. Or is it a Neurosurgeon? Oh, it's the next Chancellor of Germany...or maybe a Botanist...a Traveller (anyone wants to sponsor this person here?)...a chocolate eater...or maybe a Psychologist..or maybe...maybe..while I continue dreaming without studying, I shall end my whinings here, because I'm positively boring/scaring/confusing anyone who happens to read this...or is anyone doing that at all? Well, this is supposed to be a diary or whatsoever, so a diary is supposed to be secret, and I've been led into a major scam! Arghh. Maybe I'll just make this thing Locked. Or however others call it.


I stargazed. [5:43 PM]


MY Birthday

Monday, April 19, 2004

Hey hey! Today's the 19th of April, and TOday's mah Birthday! Oh yea! You can tell how excited I am can you? Unfortunately, there's also chinese spelling (of all things), and amaths test, and an emaths test that was thankfully postponed to this wednesday. Just as well. Including CCA dah. Haha. I really can't say that life is really, really, really depressing and bleak and my future is in ruins. Because it's just not as bad as everyone says. I've gotten used to sitting right in front, and right slap in the middle. Well, somewhat. It's so fun! Can't wait. -_-''' Yeah. Haha. I'm desperately trying to improve my chinese here. I'm already secondary three, with the chinese standard of a primary four-er? Great improvement huh? You could say that. Well, I'm trying, so encourage me! In addition, I'm getting more and more depressed seeing many others' beautiful blogs, with all the pictures, and colours, and all the additions. I love them. Can someone just offer me some help man? Haha. Kidding. I don't really intend to put too much effort into this, I suppose. Charissa, the ever bo-liao girl, gave me a birthday present that I promise I'll never forget. I really understand why you took like half your Saturday to do it? I'm cracking up again. It's really a spread girl, thanks for the present, and the time limit to open it! I really loved laughing at your creativity. It's been a great day, I love my friends, I love God, and I thank Him lots for everything. Everything. Like I also thank Him for bringing such a place called Germany into existence. Although I'm not really thankful for Hitler. A sweet for anyone who wants to help me disfigure my template? Haha. I guess I'm desperate. I can't really get out of my head the day that Mr. Yau yelled at us. It's like everytime there's physics class, I get freaked out (I suppose it takes time), and guess what? Physics is the only subject I do the homework for. I can't say I totally detest Physics. It's...nice, I guess. Yeah right! And I adore Chinese!


I stargazed. [5:44 AM]


Nothingness.

Saturday, April 17, 2004

okay. i shall start on nothing. here goes. haha! yesterday went to MGS for their dance night. it was...magical, i suppose. well, i liked our school's one. but before i got there, i was totally lost. sheesh. i shall not disclose how long i was lost cause it's totally embarrassing. well, when i got there, the first thing that happened was that i got lost in the school. only for 5 minutes. but it was enough to make two very distinct people laugh at me. ME. haha, but it was a nice night. so many people dancing. i think i'm deluded by our school's dance club cause we have a meagre amount of people in our dance club. MGS' dance club membership is like, whoah. Could i say about like 50? i don't know. and the guys were like...sigh. okay you be thinking about this shallow girl who went to a dance performance just to look at guys. that wasn't my motive. nope. it wasn't.


I stargazed. [10:23 AM]


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