All right. I feel so resigned. I guess they're right. My chinese is horrible, incorrigible, and vegetable. Oh! I failed. This isn't how it should be. I worked hard, I tried to answer the thinking questions from the bottom of my heart...obviously it wasn't enough. I know what went wrong in this chinese paper. Everything. If only I read more chinese books, if only I studied harder, if only listened harder to the teacher, if only I worked harder on a daily basis... Geez, I have so many if onlys. And this isn't going to happen, in the long run. This paper has a lot of shockers. Firstly, I shall decline to mention them. But I hope that those who got discouraged will not let their lousy marks overwhelm them to an extent where they give up. I'm one of those that gave up, and right now, I hope that it isn't too late to get up again. Hugs and kisses to the broken hearted. Believe me, I know how you feel. Your peers and many others have high expectations of you, and you feel like you've disappointed them. Cry if it would relief you, but get up knowing that you'll do better. And don't say that you'll take on other means of relief...don't scare me. Shall not rant more on this.

Will someone tell me how to cry? I feel like everything's so...like constipation. I've never cried recently. And I've never cried even when I watched the sappiest and saddest romance movie or whatsoever. (Maybe only during Titanic. Hahaa). Will someone tell me how to? And I'm not crying because of my chinese. My English!!! Maybe some people out there might want to punch me for saying this, but I think I did fairly badly for my English. My situational and compo surprised me all too well; but the comprehension and summary were awful. And my Emaths...ouch to the worst degree. Whatonearth. I really have to review the paper and see what's wrong, but I've never done that in my entire life. Ah, maybe that's what's wrong all the time. Perhaps this is only the starting of the nightmare. Perhaps this may be a wake-up call. Perhaps.

Today started out as rather fine, and ended rather horribly. But still, I don't want to dwell on today. Today should be awesome, and the DNA thing comfused me. But I loved the life-science lab. It was so cooling! I wish I could stay in there, locked inside the room forever.

I don't know what I'll do now. I feel drained after letting out everything here. I just hope that weekends will end faster so that the checking of papers will just come and go quickly. I don't happy about anything at all. I feel miserable. I don't expect anyone to come and comfort me, but please, to some unfeeling creeps out there, don't say anything about how lousy your grades are when you've gotten a 40/50 for chinese compo. You know who you are. I'll slap you. Kidding. I never slap people.

On a parting note. I'm speechless. What I need to comfort me now is to hear the German anthem's melody. That tune really does wonders for me. I know *some* people may roll their eyes.

Well, bite me.