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Suicidal. Not.

Sunday, May 23, 2004

I realised that I love saying things that may come across to others as suicidal. But hell. No way will I commit that. It's terminating your life, and that's not what God has in plan for you. Ohhoho. No way. Anyway. I like the phrase 'Kiss me Goodbye'. It feels floaty and it's like you're living in another realm.

Anyway, I spent today eating lots of ground nuts and drinking soooo much water I had to go to the washroom an umpteen times to empty my bladder. It's like working overtime. Anyway, I went to a very hushed place today and spent one sixth of my time there. Wells. Hms. I don't know what to say. This isn't a very nice thing to mention about here.

One thing I know, I react adversely to the topic of death. It's not that I fear death, but once it comes into my knowledge that I'm in close promiximity with someone, something that's dead, it chills me to the bones. And I feel sad when the deceased is not saved by the grace of God. It gives me a sense of melancholy. In conclusion, I'm very dispirited now. Don't talk to me. Right.

Cheerios.

It makes me feel sunny, just to look at it. Btw, I got it from here Thanks to the person.



I stargazed. [9:36 PM]


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