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A state of nothingness
I took the bus home and missed a stop. Had to walk the length of a bus stop back. Saw the buses whizz pass me and I almost cried. Tried to cut fruit and sliced my hand like a medical surgeon only could. Played Oasis and felt my mood plummet like a heart only can. 'Cause you had a bad day doesn't even begin to define it. But before I continue to wallow in my own pool of pity (of which I shan't. Oh and don't play Marion Raven when you're sad too. It seems like they're all going into depression or what. But her album is pretty good, you know the latest one, if you want to go into depression) today hasn't been that bad actually. I just don't know what's wrong with me. It's like when I was walking it seemed like an extremely good time for reflection and then everything came rushing to me and then I just felt like crying. For no apparent reason. And with strange dreams with the class in it, it's just one of the blatant signs of me being on the brink of insanity. Honestly though, the dreams are pretty funny too if you think of it. But that's not the point here. I think it was brought on by
I can't type normally because my index finger is safely ensconced in a plaster that's too stiff for agile movement of the finger. Why am I complaining. Why are you reading this. Why am I here. Blah. Ok I shan't continue like this. Feels too desolate. HALLO WORLD HOW DID YOU THINK THE GP PAPER WAS? Now everyone's getting depressed except for me. Cos I really don't care! Lalalalas. Alright people, study hard and don't let yourself down and may God bless ya'll :)
It's just different
Today was an experience that I'd hoped for and yet one I'd never hoped for. But all in all, it was positive, with externalities, no less. Too much econs gets into one's head sometimes. And,
You know what I mean, you do. Rach I know you do you do you do and others too. You do you do you do Take care all, and I mean that. God's been good, all the time :)
Blech.
Swallowed a red globe grape that closely resembles a sphere with a diameter of 2cm. I think the oesophagus almost burst with grapey anticipation. It is awfully painful I tell you. Then when I choked on the silly little grape, my sister played ShanHuHai and it seemed even more like a funeral. It took like 15 minutes for the pain to subside and I think my oesophagus will never be the same again. Just an exemplar of how dramatic today was. AND JEEZ I haven't mailed my EOM yet. And playing hearts is bad for my heart. But still, I WANT TO PLAY. Of course, given today, I am more trained to retain my composure after getting something really sinister like the Queen of Spades that seems to be public enemy number one now ok. Hola Ciao Take Care Bye people!
The Practice of Randomitis
As of yesterday, I have learnt a few, or one thing(s):
And there's PE TOMO!!!
Tatas. Hello to all my girlfriends out there. PERSEVERE ON OHKAY and study till you half drop because after that we'll shop till we DROP! YAY! Love <3 And we'll keep each other in our prayers
I want to...
Extremely tempted to repeat one of the posts I did like two years ago. Looks very abstract OK. Well, at least I, the master abstract artist, think so. Cool aye.
Learning it all
HELLO FOLKS :D It's been fantastic, everything has been. Had the youth fellowship today, and I'd say it was something new for me. Because it was in a different perspective. I was like thinking that if I weren't 2i/c I wouldn't be the one who starts talking at all. A good experience, nonetheless. And it was also SUUUPER hot today. Walked the wrong way from Simei MRT to Moriah BPC, had to detour because it was the wrong way, and almost fainted from the realisation. Fortunately managed to get there just fine :) Very smiley these days, I am. School's gonna start Monday, it is. Awwwww. Haha. BUT. I'm still happy nonetheless. RACHIE WOMAN you enjoyed yourself in KL 'NORT. You'd better ok. Because we didn't meet up this holiday. And everyone else's just too busy to do anything but study. I so want to watch John Tucker Must Die. And oh, this may be kind of random, but Tony Blair's gonna resign? LIKE WHAT. But we'll never know what the future holds don't we. Human beings are just so limited. Fortunately we can fret not! Because we have a God who's just SO unlimited. And I thank God for that. I realise I haven't written a coherent post for a very long time. This is bad. I think I kinda forgot what coherence is, too. Honestly, however, who wants to listen to my view on politics? Who's ever interested in politics these days, apart from me. But we can still talk about Barbie dolls and myscene.com ayee And I'm still happy :) why, I can't figure out where it stems from, but I'm on my way, on my way... Our secret garden,
CAN YOU IMAGINE! Hahaha jooooy! Love <3
Neverending cycle
If you remember, it's Ong all over again. No, that Ong, you know. I can totally die. I think we're playing online mind games now. Very tiring. Don't want to think of a single thing at all. Nothingnothingnothing. Because I secretly know that nothing's happening and yet, why do I feel like something is? Confusing, that's all I can say about that.
And I think through I these a see a lack in a private world that's in order. Because all I see is absolute disorder. I need my order back. Then it can govern everything else happening and so, even though there's disorder raging outside, everything will be safe and sound inside of my soul. Because that's where everything that matters starts. God guide me. Bye folks :)
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me `Melissa `God `VJC `19 Apr 1989 `Music, my life `Studies, my bane `It's been 23576565 days since this was updated
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